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Comment On Try Me

Dear Robyn

I hope you don’t mind if I copy your reply  comment into my posting. Because I think it’s the only way to publish your reply  comment.


I tried to enter a reply comment on your “TRY ME” post but Comments are not enabled.

In your post you state “…holy matrimony can be cancelled after the wedding happened. Just because the male was impotent. A marriage that was passed and blessed in the church… . And my assumption, there is no divorce in a holy matrimony…. The bride wants to divorce because the groom was impotent. And the church passed her request. She got a letter that explains she can marry again and her former husband got a letter forbidding him to marry again.”

I am not sure which church you are discussing but this can happen in the United States not only with religious weddings but civil weddings as well. However, I think your terminology is incorrect. In this situation, there would not be a divorce but an annulment. The difference is that a divorce said that the marriage happened, the people were married, but now their marriage is being dissolved. An annulment says that everything that was needed to complete the marriage ceremony did not happen. The couple is not married until the marriage ceremony is complete. In order for a marriage ceremony to complete, the couple HAS TO consummate their marriage. If the marriage cannot be consummated, then the marriage never finished and the couple are not married. And they cannot divorce because they are not married. This happened to a famous movie star or singer recently here in the US. The couple got married but the groom was too drunk (or on drugs) to consummate the marriage. So the movie star left the guy and obtained an annulment.

Annulments are actually an issue with the legalization of gay marriage here in the US. Technically, gay couples cannot consummate a marriage. If marriage consummation is removed as a requirement to being married in order to allow gay couples to marry, then people could marry anyone or anything…

I hope this explanation helps! Good post!
Peace, Robyn


Finally,  with a heavy heart and a sense of shame I have to admit this.

In fact … in reality… I am a GAY lover.

Oh, I am so relieved after I say this. But I have one request as a friend.

Please don’t ridicule me. Just accept me for who I am. Not more and less.

Maybe before I admit this, you already know about it from my postings.

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Gentle And Yummy !

Yes, that’s it. Jelly and marshmallow are my favourite candies. 🙂

All ’bout the money

This is a follow-up story of my intimate relationship with a man that I’ve already posted in “If  I Were A Carpenter”

For me, an old saying that says “love is blind” seems to happen in this case. He already fell in love with me, after he saw my pictures in a social network. I don’t know which one is right, whether I look a like a real woman or he didn’t take a look at my pictures very carefully.

First time he sent me message, I really surprised with his compliments. My feeling is between happy, doubt and think that it is only a spam.  With fad I replied to his message. It happened several times.

Then our relationship become more intimate and I don’t want to break his heart. Among other he said that meeting me is not a difficult thing to do, but then my heart must be ready to meet him. So I asked him how he can be so sure about his feeling to me, because we never meet. How can he be so sure that I’m a woman that can fulfil his love.  I began to remind him to observe me, search about me, investigate me and questioning myself.  But it goes like an old saying that says “dogs bark, the caravan still passes”, he keeps sending me messages containing his compliments.

Because I’m so  confused and still not dare to tell him who I really am,  so I give him a clue with a question that asks his opinion on crossdresser, lesbian and gay. But it goes the same way too as before. Maybe he’s drunk in love. What further questions and clues I must ask and say to him to give him a clear vision about me.

I finally ventured to make a confession stating that I am a crossdresser. After that he stopped sending me emails for several days. I came to conclusion that he must be shocked to know that I am a crossdresser.

Apparently,  my conclusion is wrong, because he finally sent me an email. But the content of his email makes me sure that he is only a spammer. He told me that he still loves me and he wants to send a lot of money to me, but I must keep it secret and I must give him my detail identity. A very typical message that I often receive from many letters from different persons, man and woman.

I should be ashamed to tell you about this story. My  fake love affair with a spammer. So it can be said that it’s all about money. So, maybe  any spammers want to comment on my posting ? Please feel free to leave a comment as usually you always leave me so many comments to keep me busy. 🙂


When I was browsing  Youtube and saw the song above, suddenly I remembered an old friend of mine in high school named Denis as well.  Me and Denis used to sit in same table together in the last  row in the classroom. We are close friends.

Denis and I like the others in general are also pleased joking and kidding. Sometimes also played  physical game. But there was something that Denis did to me that I didn’t like it. Denis sometimes likes to pinch and poke my breasts and buttocks while saying, “plump,  tender, a lot of meat, flirtatious, like a girl”. When I was a student, I was a bit chubby. I could not get angry with him, I also didn’t feel so offended. I just felt a bit annoyed and a bit uncomfortable. Maybe Denis saw that our table was in the last line, so no one behind us who can saw what Denis doing to me. A very good position. A hidden place.

I also  admit that Denis face is attractive. But at last we separated when we graduated. Since then I never meet Denis again and never heard of Denis again.

So, where are you now my dear friend Denis ? Are you still reading my article ? I hope you don’t angry with me, because of this article. If so, I am sorry. I hope you are doing well right now, happy with your life and your spouse. Or are you still looking for life couple ? A woman or a man ? Or both ?

Nobody’s fault but mine

Today I read an article about whether gay couples can adopt children or not. The  article seems to make sense. It says that it can cause anxiety when the child imitate the behavior of the parents who deviate. Otherwise, another opinion says that  the child after developing adult will have his own way  and act with its own personality. The influences don’t come only from the parent, but also from the neighbourhood and school.
Introspection on myself, my parents are normal people. But I grew to like this. Then, whose fault is this? Nobody’s fault but mine, I guess.

Mabuk kepayang ala Bollywood

Anda tentu tahu ciri-ciri film India. Nyanyi dan menari, menangis dan tertawa, ceritanya membuai dan lagu-lagunya mendayu-dayu. Durasinya panjang. Betul-betul memabukkan.

Barusan saya mendapat teman cowok dari India di internet. Tidak mengira ternyata dia betul-betul tipikal seperti aktor yang di film-film India, perayu. Baru saja kenal dia sudah bilang cinta pada saya. Katanya saya cantik. Padahal kami baru saja bertemu. Itupun hanya lewat internet. Perkataan itu tidak diucapkan hanya sekali dua saja, tapi berulang-ulang. Tidak itu saja, ia pun mengobral ciuman. Katanya ia jatuh cinta pada pandangan pertama. Lalu ia bertanya balik apakah saya mencintainya dan meminta saya mengomentari fotonya. Saya jawab wajahnya seperti bintang film Bollywood. Sedangkan soal cinta sayapun menjawab realistis, bagaimana bisa saya mencintainya. Bukankah kita baru saja bertemu di internet. Saya belum mengenal anda secara mendalam. Diapun menjawab tidak apa-apa. Yang penting saya tahu dia mencintai saya. Sayapun mulai terbawa suasana.

Diapun mengajak saya untuk main webcam, tapi saya tolak karena waktu itu ditempat saya online tidak ada webcamnya. Saya juga menjelaskan bahwa foto-foto saya terlihat cantik karena makeup yang tebal. Dia menjawab kalau dirumah ada webcam apakah saya mau main webcam sampai larut malam, saya jawab kalau dirumah saya tidak biasa internetan sampai larut malam. Dan diapun mengerti.

Chatpun berlanjut.Saya bilang kalau saya punya keinginan pakai sari, tapi tidak tahu caranya. Dia bilang akan memakaikannya pada saya. Karena saya masih bertanya terus, maka diapun menerangkan dengan terperinci. Dimulai dengan bra dan panty, kemudian ditutup dengan blouse dan bawahan, baru kemudian pakai sarinya. Katanya dia malu untuk menjelaskan ini.

Malamnya ketika saya membuka facebook saya dan bilang kalau saya mau tidur,  dia memohon-mohon supaya saya tetap online  sebentar lagi.

Kemudian besoknya ketika kami chating lagi, saya tanya bagaimana cuaca di sana. Dia bilang cuacanya dingin. Sayapun menjawab dengan romantis seandainya saya ada disana untuk menghangatkannya.  Kemudian setelah berbicara tentang hal-hal lain  dia menjadi semakin menggebu-gebu. Katanya ia sudah menunjukkan foto-foto saya kepada ibunya dan bilang kepada ibunya kalau saya adalah teman wanitanya. Dia juga bilang kalau ibunya tidak keberatan. Wah bisa gawat juga kalau sudah sampai tahap ini. Bahkan dia bilang mau pergi ke tempat tinggal saya walaupun jarak tempat tinggal kami berjauhan dan berbeda negara. Sekali lagi dia menanyakan apakah saya mencintai dia dan mau menerima dia jika dia datang ke tempat saya. Karena saya merasa selalu dirayu, maka saya tanya apakah ia selalu merayu teman wanitanya. Apakah saya ini menggemaskan baginya.

Sampai pada tahap ini saya jadi bingung jangan-jangan dia mengira kalau saya wanita sejati. Sedemikian bingungnya saya sampai kemudian chat dengan teman fb saya yang lain untuk minta pendapatnya. Tapi kemudian dia mendahului dengan mengatakan bahwa dia sudah tahu kalau saya gay ( menurut istilah dia ). Maka saya jawab, kalau saya jadi lega. Karena dia sudah tahu keadaan yang sebenarnya. Kemudian saya tanya apakah dari awal dia sudah tahu soal itu. Dia menjawab kalau awalnya dia mengira saya wanita sejati, kemudian dia menambahkan saya sebagai temannya. Baru kemudian setelah mengamat-amati foto-foto saya, akhirnya dia tahu kalau saya gay . Tapi dia sudah terlanjur jatuh cinta pada saya.

Tiba-tiba dia bilang bahwa dia tahu kalau saya tidak mencintainya. Diapun seperti mengucapkan kata-kata perpisahan. Kalau saya menolaknya, dia tidak akan chat atau mengirim pesan lagi ke saya dan tidak akan mengganggu saya lagi. Katanya ia mengucapkan ini dengan menitikkan air mata. Sayapun menghiburnya, karena saya memang tidak keberatan berteman dengan dia. Saya jawab,jangan sedih. Saya tidak menolaknya. Saya tidak keberatan menjadi temannya atau teman dekatnya atau teman wanitanya. Setelah jeda sebentar, barulah ia menjawab tidak keberatan dengan itu. Katanya lagi yang penting dia menyukai saya.